THE FISH INSIDE ME
Five (wet) poems - (for a sixth wet poem, see the Watsu in a Beit Zayit pool entry in this blog)
The poems are accompanied by macro photographs of Kambucha mushrooms that proliferate in sweet tea, producing a fermented drink said to have healing powers
Sargasso Sea*
In the still eye
of the Atlantic, where ships
are trapped
in snarls of seaweed,
I am a net
swung out by Mother Ocean
to fish discarded
dreams,
an unborn child, wriggling
through forests of tendrils,
blessed
with gills
I did not know I had
In this dead silence,
untouched
by massive ocean streams, I cling
to weeds
that lost their way
to still time
and not make landfall
too soon
*The Sargasso Sea is a region in the middle of the North Atlantic Ocean. It is bounded on the west by the Gulf Stream; on the north, by the North Atlantic Current; on the east, by the Canary Current; and on the south, by the North Atlantic Equatorial Current. All the currents deposit the marine plants and refuse they carry into this sea.
Issyk Kul, “the Warm Lake,” Kyrgyzstan
Hemmed in
by snow mountains, this terminal lake
holds on to its water - it does not bleed
its secrets
Legends tell
of four drowned cities
buried in its bed, of Black Death
arising from its banks,
while Russian torpedoes
plumb the depths
of its subconscious
I let myself sink
in this vast alpine sea
that accepts me
as if it always knew me -
not a foreign body
in its warm, saline waters,
but almost endemic, like its fish
threatened
with extinction.
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In a Glass Jar
In the silence
of submerged fungi
that thirst
for sugared tea,
I am a seahorse
suspended
amidst swelling
membranes that threaten
to colonize this jar
My skin
breaks out in goose-bumps
when I brush
against their gelatinous
sacs; their knotted tails ensnare
my flesh and brown secretions sour
the liquid where I am caught
looking out
through the darkening glass
instead of peering through my lens
looking in
***
My Inner Fish
The fish inside me
thrive
in the bulk of my body
that is water
I feel them whirring
through my cells, wriggling
my spine,
making my fluids
gurgle;
with the swish of their tails
they spin
my mind, give me the shivers
when they flip like a fetus
in my womb
The fish inside me
smile
as I slide back
to an ancient self,
and let them swim
me
with the grace
and speed
I otherwise lack
***
Photographing
Kambucha Mushrooms
I muse
on these mushrooms I grow,
symbioses of bacteria and yeast
in an alchemist’s jar of fermenting
fluids meant as a brew
to cure all ills.
Swathed
in a coat of slime they lie
suspended, baring
their folds and sprout
contorted tails that quiver
in the copper-colored liquid
or coil up on their skin, resembling
a wound.
Lit by my studio lamp
they become translucent, flowing
veils of belly dancers,
an amniotic sac.
I gaze
upon their pimpled flesh,
their purple tongues
and shudder
as they conjure up sensations
I knew before
I learned to speak, before
they slipped through webs
of well-bred words
into oblivion
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